Benjamin is gravely ill. He probably had a kidney issue developing prior to the amputation, but with his feral diet and being so strong and active, it was a slow burner. The vet said he is midway between acute and chronic kidney disease which suggests some trauma historically could have started it or it could have been developing over time without a trigger.
After several nights on IV fluids in the hospital, and trying medications to help, it is clear Benjamin is not going to recover and he is worsening every day.
Today he could barely use his litter box, collapsed in it, and is now asleep in his bed un-groomed and exhausted.
We have an appointment at 3pm to see the vet and it is clear that the absolute best thing for Benjamin is to be at peace.
He hates being incapable, he hates being unclean. He is sleeping, not eating, barely able to walk a few steps, and he is definitely not happy in any sense of the word.
Even stroking or cuddling him causes him distress and discomfort.
This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, because I value life above all else, but I know in my heart that keeping Benjamin like this another day is cruel.
I love him so much. Only 6 years old.
I got an extra 4 months with him though- the incident that led to his amputation could have killed him but I got to have my baby for 4 loving and cuddly months.
I love you my baby boy